Rabbits and a lack of motivation

Hmm...I don't really know what's wrong with me. It is only the second week of classes, and already I feel so disgustingly unmotivated. I'm so tired, and I'm not really sure why. Last night I got almost 9 hours of sleep! Carmen (the professor, not the senora) told us that it is bad for you to sleep a lot during siesta so I've been trying not to lately. Plus, that seems like a good time to do homework. But maybe I'll sleep today. I don't know. I just don't want to do anything...least of all Spanish. Right now I'm wondering if I was ever passionate enough about Spanish to come on this trip at all. I feel like I should be making a lot more effort to practice my Spanish, both in and out of school. But right now I don't really care. It's looking like I'll never be able to teach those children in the basement how to speak Spanish. Sorry kids.

With that being said, I guess I have learned a lot already. I mean, there are so many things I can say now that I couldn't say before. And I've only been here 2 weeks. I guess I just need to be more patient. Ugh...patience. Actually, yesterday I felt really stupid in Spanish at school, but at home it was good because I actually had a conversation with Carmen! We had rabbit (conejo) for lunch so we had a nice long discussion about where the rabbits come from. And then she randomly told me that her birthday is next week, and when I said my Dad's birthday is close to that, she asked about my family. When I told her that they are coming in March she got really excited. (I'm excited too!) So it was good.

Another highlight of yesterday was getting a letter from Rachelle! Mail is so much fun (*hint, hint*), and the note was so sweet...full of good Bible verses that were a great comfort. I got another letter today, but I can't figure out who it's from. I'm saving it for siesta today...so, thanks in advance, mystery person in South Carolina!

A lowlight of yesterday was the fact that it rained a lot so I didn't go out at all after I got back from school. I spent most of the day in my room doing homework very slowly. It was so cold in my room. I had the heater turned on and I was wearing a t-shirt, a long sleeved t-shirt, a cardigan, a hooded sweater with the hood up, and Lauren's scarf. (Of course, I probably would have been wearing Lauren's scarf even if it was really hot, but that's besides the point.) Anyway, though, I was still cold. Cold and exhausted.

Sigh. I know I need to learn to be content here. I know I need to want to want to be here. Maybe I'll work on that after I get some sleep...